Purge in Thoughts
It’s been a year now since I left home. A few months ago I was sitting at home watching my favorite television network without realizing that by the time I open my eyes the next day I’d be in a totally different world. Leaving my home for nearly 16 years of my life is a huge step for me. It’s like going to highschool without even reaching elementary. For some they might not find it very difficult but for me it is, that’s because I’m not used to changes especially when it’s very sudden. Now I’m off to college and pursue my choice of career (which I’m not so sure yet), get a job and a couple of years later have my own apartment and live life on my own. I’m just not yet ready to give up anything yet, that’s what makes it so hard. And not just that… This is also a challenge for me and my friends, a test of how strong our friendship really is. I have to be really honest… I’m sick and tired of wasting my time checking my friendster account or e-mail waiting for a message from my friends, but not necessesarily all of them. There are a few of my friends who I really appreciate for always getting in touch with me but I’m not mentioning any names, I’m pretty sure they know who they are anyways. I’ve done my part, I always did and sometimes I feel like I’m just wasting my time. It’ll just appear that I’m so desperate for attention, which I must admit I really do. But you can’t blame me right? I’m a thousand miles away and I don’t have anyone to talk to besides a white and tan chihuahua, it’s just frustrating. I hope that one day I’d be able to get through with all of this, it takes a lot of time but I will… I must.
